Life as it is ...

I have lived in America for almost three years. I live in a "Happy Valley" where everyone is supposedly happy and nice ... However, a lot of times I find myself missing home ... missing nice people ... a lot of times I feel like people here do not even care about anything, but how much money they make, what car they drive, and how much more successful they are than their neighbor ... sigh ...
I grew up in a society where it is rude to eat a chocolate bar in front of other kids because you gotta share ... and maybe the other kid left his / her snacks at home or simply cannot afford one ... it is rude to put a gum in your mouth without offering your friends one ... it is rude to start eating before everyone has been served their food ... etc. etc. We are taught to be considerate since we are little kids.
I find that here when people ask you "How are you?" or "How is it going?" they do not really care. Last week I was experimenting so, I replied to the standard "How are you?" "Oh, it could be better" ... and guess what? No one noticed ... literally NO ONE ... funny ... or should I say sad? I do not know ...
I miss living around people that actually care ... that would be friends with you not because you are smart and help them with homework, not because they want to go to med school and you have a good sugar mama potential, but because they like you for what you are, and they just care for you because you are such a good friend and they are amazing themselves...
Often I feel that I live in the world of fakeness, and it makes me so sad. And when you care for someone it throws people off ... they think you are sweet, but kinda weird, I mean seriously, why would you do anything like that? I have been told so many times "You are too sweet and nice, Kristina". It is funny cause in this society it is a bad thing ... It so does not make sense to me ....
I am just tired of Provo - Orem. I am tired of getting disappointed. I am tired of selfish blokes ... I am ready to move out of here and to move on ... Can someone, please, fast forward the time for me? I need one of those remotes from the Click movie, it would be sick to have one, hahaha ...
Other than that life is good ... I just wish some people cared a little more ... but it is ok :)
This year has been good to me so far. I have been trying to eat healthy and to be better at exercising. Yeah, embarrassing enough, I am outta shape. And I was eating crap the whole 2010. It feels good to eat healthy and not eating out sure pays off =) School has kept me busy big time. I am taking too many credits, but I love it. I love being busy and nerdy, haha. Yeah, I am a nerd, I am not even going to try to deny it :P
Life is full of fun and adventures when you do what you are supposed to do. This year is going to bring me lots of joy and happiness, watch it happen!